depression_now!

I'm young enough to be on my parents' health insurance plan, they have enough funding to pay for copays/deductibles (it's not really a money issue, is what I'm trying to say). But my parents (especially my mother), opposes medication and tells me I need to "Just Go Outside".

So, I wonder how long before I kms...

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I can feel a big downswing coming and its sux. I wish things other than me could change. I wish i didnt have to be the one pushing the healthy change. Im so fucking tired.

Sometimes I feel like I need to scream into the void. I dont feel kike I have anyone to scream to even the people that I should. I kinda want to scream about them and why I choose them. I know we dont work well on many levels on my side but I do love him. Screaming that I dont love how I feel with him. He doesnt like people or interacting and his views on women are a problem to me but he doesnt see it and althought I know where it comes from I know this isnt healthy for me because he wont see it as a problem and I cant fix him. I dont like anything about this. I never will. I know he doesnt have a support network, but he wont make one, saying Im enough. But on my end it has always been exhausting. This is probably incomprehensible but it has made my depression so much worse because im not just responsible for myself but hin too because he wont.

having depression and a shit hormonal condition like PMDD to acommpanied with regular intervals is the worse ; at my lowest point appetite is GONE if i don't get reminded to eat I just sleep until I feel not so garabe anymore

I am so glad to be here with you all , also come and share we are here for each other , no?