I appreciate experience itself above all. I been through some bs in my time, and have become fairly jaded in the process, but I have learned to appreciate every feeling I get to experience for what it is. Anything past dead is icing for me. Not everyday, but I try.
ThatsTheSpirit
joined 2 years ago
Having to steal food is super tiresome. Would rather not have to, but I've never felt bad about doing it. Imagine that. The normalization of the degradation is my issue personally. Putting people on one side of a moral line based on bullshit economic factors that for the one stealing are a kin to the winds of fate.
Your not alone. Same here. Lots of ideas round here.
My court ordered rehab was putting dudes w >1year clean time on suboxone.
It was a grift, the profitization of the Healthcare and criminal justice system.
I went there after jail, and it just felt like an extension of county jail. So it was "better than jail" but never quite felt like rehab. Largely dependent on the community vibe. One person could throw a wrench in it.
Ultimately I had found change before I ever got to the rehab. The rehab was more like a ridiculous reality TV side bonus to getting my real freedom back.
My experience was overall good. Not from the program or facility itself, but cause of the human connections I made.
The rehab was a really shitty, state run thing mostly for parolees.
They were putting people w mad clean time on suboxone etc. So it was a big grift on multiple levels.
Alot of their practices I did not agree with.
Ultimately it was not the rehab, but what I found within myself that helped me and I'm not sure the rehab actually provided that spark at all. It was a long time coming for me personally.
The entire experience was actually really funny and I look back on it fondly. Very surreal.
Doesn't matter if it's science math or God. It's all the same shit to me. The things I have words for and the rest is poetry.. How much do you appreciate that little mechanism? How do you experience physics? That's up to you. Life is weird af and gots lots of soul IME.