I liked BoFIII a lot, but I loved BoFIV. BoFIII re-release would be awesome, but unfortunately it never had a PC port, so it's a bit unlikely.
banazir
joined 2 years ago
CDs are better than vinyl.
Sometime in my early 20s I realized I was starting to dread social interactions. It was gradual, but for a long time I could feel myself getting worse and didn't know what was happening or where it would end. Those were scary times.
Evacuation in my ass? Sounds about right.
The Matt Parker? Of Parker Square fame?
I can sometimes see auras around people. It's fascinating stuff, but the strain of it can cause debilitating pain.
Western medicine calls it "migraines", but what does science know?
Of those two, I think Fedora is the better choice since the packages are more up to date. Fedora with Plasma is a great choice anyway. It's also a large distro with lots of online support. Try it out!
Who says you shouldn't care? We carry our parental relationships through our lives. It's the kind of bond you can never truly sever. We are social animals who want love and acceptance from our primary care givers, even as adults.
Recognizing you can't squeeze blood from a stone is important though. You can only accept your parents for who they are. There's no use in re-traumatizing yourself every time you interact with them. You have to form your relationship with the parents you have, not the ones you wish you had. What that means exactly is up to you to figure out for yourself.
But here's the thing: You're old enough now to be the parent you always needed to your own inner child. It won't be easy, but recognize that that child deserved - and deserves! - all the love in the world. You didn't fail; your parents did.
I'm sorry if I can't offer much more than these scattered thoughts. I wish you find the love you need and deserve.
For me it's about letting go. The depression is telling me to slow down and no matter what my plans were, I have to respect that. If I don't, it'll just get worse and stay longer. This can be a hard pill to swallow with my personality, but I've learned that I don't really have any options. If I feel I need to lie down on the sofa, or even the floor, I do that. I know I'm at my worst when I only have the mental and physical energy for lying down and listening to a podcast. From experience, forcing myself is the worst thing I can do.
I'm reading The Shadow Rising by Robert Jordan, the fourth book in The Wheel of Time series. I'm starting to get a bit sick of the characters, frankly. Petty, angry, dishonest liars most of them, looking to make the worst decisions for any given situation. I still like the book, oddly enough, but I wish the characters like, grow up sometime soon.
Thanks, now I'm depressed.
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You sound just like your mother.