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I had a brush with both alcoholism and video game addiction before. Good to hear that you don't have to deal with any addictions.

I think what could really help is having a tight circle of friends. When you have nothing going on for you in life and you are not really looking forward for anything, it might get you in this circular thinking of “my life is ruined because my brain doesn’t work right” and really focusing on this thought and seeing your neurodivergency as the root of all discomfort in your life, which may then manifest itself as suicidal thoughts. I have been there and I sometimes still have such episodes because I don't get what I expect from my friends. So yeah, this is of course no easy task, but try to find people that will enrich your life with new things. Try to find things you can look forward to. You can say that it's just coping, and it is, you are trying to disassociate from the pain of living with autism, but there is no other way around it; you can't solve autism, you can only cope with it. There is no shame in coping with something that you cannot change.

Hang in there! If you try, it can only get better.

If you have ADHD and autism, it might increase the risk of substance abuse/addictions in general. Some papers on it: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/23897915/, https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5222913/, https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3965675/

I'd buy a Nokia flip phone immediately if HMD would stop locking the bootloaders of their KaiOS devices. Great little gadget, very little customizability.

Excuse me, but sometimes, I just want to be angry and not "rationalize the causes of my anger". I think it's fully okay to be pissed about something and wanting to vocalize your anger without immediately neutering it by "expressing" the thing that made you angry instead. I would even say that trying to extinguish your emotions constantly will cause you to explode like a pressure cooker one day. You are just invalidating your own emotional reaction. Same thing applies when someone hurts me. You hurt me, goddamn it, I am gonna tell you why I got hurt, but most importantly, I am going to express how much I got hurt.

I am not sure if advertising is a necessary evil. I guess I do not like being sold something constantly, and when I am in the market for anything, I will expose myself to advertising willingly, but it is, in way, a matter of consent. I can imagine that there is also people who like being sold things unsolicited, you know, they might say that they like discovering new products through advertisements.

You can try setting up Ollama on your RPi, then use a highly-quantized variant of the Mistral model (or quantize it yourself with GGUF+llama.cpp). You can do some very heavy quantization (2-bit), which will increase the error rate. But if you are only planning to use the generated text as a starting point, it might be useful nevertheless. Also see: https://github.com/ollama/ollama/blob/main/docs/import.md#importing-pytorch--safetensors

Here are some pre-quantized variants of Mistral 7B: https://huggingface.co/TheBloke/Mistral-7B-v0.1-GGUF

(all the tools and models I have mentioned in my comment are free and open-source, and beyond that, require no uplink during operation)

Uhm, xdg-desktop-portal? https://wiki.archlinux.org/title/XDG_Desktop_Portal

Workrave. Does not work at all on Wayland. But I have been using Wayland the last two years and I am glad that I made the switch. The beginning was a bit rough, but I am glad that I never have to deal with screen tearing ever again on Linux.

LBreakout[1] is the best Arkanoid clone, period. There has been many attempts by Taito (or Square Enix by proxy) to reboot the franchise but each of their releases just flopped terribly because they keep removing features that people come back to Arkanoid for (the latest PC release, Eternal Battle, has no level editor). In similar vein is Apotris[2] (whose developer is being hunted by the Tetris Company like a fugitive the last few months) is the greatest iteration of Tetris IMO, and it is open-source and developed by a one-man team.

[1] https://lgames.sourceforge.io/LBreakoutHD/ [2] https://akouzoukos.com/apotris

The RPi was always very overpriced. I think they knew they were selling a lifestyle product from day 1, you know, "here's the new toy for the tech crowd that has too much money anyway". Sometimes I cannot believe what ridiculous sums of cash people give out for SoCs with custom cases that are definitely not worth the pay-up, ex. the whole clockworkOS computers which got abandoned by the manufacturer few months going forward, and the massive financial hurdle to become a part of the user community means the community/fan crowd just implodes as soon as the tech bros find a more shiny device to waste money on. Then all you got is abandoned hardware with no community support.

Remote? Do you connect yourself over telnet or what?

I had Opera on my Nokia 2600. I think it was called a WAP browser back then. Tiny mouse cursor on a 150x170px screen, good times.