My son will be 13 months on the 16th. This evening has been particularly rough. It started with my pom escaping the fence during dinner. So I had to interrupt my son eating and go collect my dog. Then he decided he didn't want to finish eating or basically even start eating. I put him in the bath since that always helps. It helped until I took him out.
So I was trying to get him dressed for bed since he was just absolutely tired. Well while wrestling him to get a diaper on. He keeps alligator rolling. I just snapped and yelled at him. But he was so focused on his own screaming that he didn't even flinch.
I feel like a failure. After that I finally succeeded in getting a diaper on him then. Tried to nurse him to sleep like we usually do. NOPE. continued to scream and fight sleep. After about 10 minutes, I gave up and just put him in the crib. He fought sleep for another 5 minutes then crashed.
Earlier I checked him for a fever or anything physical that needed medical attention. He was just exhausted ๐
Edit: thank you everyone for your kind words. Turns out he was also coming down with Fifths disease. Sounds scary but better than RSV, the flu or covid.
I'm not a parent, but nothing you described there sounded unusual or horrible. Shooting up heroine with your baby in the microwave is horrible, you just ran out of patience.
I just feel horrible. I never wanted to yell like that at him ๐ญ
My kid was a very colicky baby. Parenting is rough. The fact that you feel like a bad parent means you are most definitely not a bad parent.