Stop Drinking

fast as possible, yes we have to remember our last drink/drunk, it's impossible for me to forget mine cause I crashed another car, lucky not to involve anyone else, court in a few days. yeah I had alcoholic amnesia, couldn't remember how awful the withdrawals are or what being drunk actually feels like. it's the drug I've abused the most and I don't remember what it feels like. I remember how every other drug feels. but some things I've come to learn is that no it's not a disease in the conventional sense, but it is progressive, it will kill me and it talks to me and tells me I'm not an alcoholic. cancer does not talk to you. AAs not for everyone but I literally could not stop myself from drinking, pure insanity not wanting to drink, you put me on a lie detector I'd say I'm never drinking again and it wouldn't go off, but I'd be drunk that afternoon.