i usually have low energy and sometimes dissociate and can’t snap out of it

i know you've all heard it before, but i didn't catch up, i was honestly a bit surprised when i was browsing and tesseract on dubvee shut down.

i feel like satan or some demon is inside me like i said. i must repent. i must pay for my sins. i must make an offering to the lord. idk why i feel this way. 😭

i remember my friends and i would say "he repented her" instead of sexual assault/rape because it was "lighter", and because some places like school may have banned the word.

i'm genuinely starting to believe that some sort of demon or satan himself is inside me. i know it's not real and i should get help, which i am getting, but i just needed some comfort or perhaps anecdotes. no criticism please and i don't think i need advice, i'm getting help and i will talk to someone. it feels like a demon is giving me urges to say mean things i normally wouldnt say. i'm crazy aren't i?

i just need comfort or perhaps someone share similar experiences.

i tend to say "YAYY" a lot when something good happens, if that counts, but i say it like a lot.