Bisexual

In the end this ramble will be pretty meaningless until I actually manage to have any actual relationship, cuz its kinda dumb to talk about it never being in one (well technically there was one week long disaster, but that's not a story for today). Ive got disorders and am well aware of my perception of reality being distorted, which doesn't mean I actually can recognize these distortions. For some reason, whether those distortions or experience, I consider gay peoples very cool and interesting and it would kinda feel nice to be one of those? I think? Idk, am histrionic, Ive had a history of jokingly flirting with all irl friends regardless of gender, but I did it more for the sport of it than to make it into something serious (don't do it anymore, realized it was too easy for me to overstep boundaries). Sometimes I get a like on a dating app from a man I would consider really fucking good lookin', but like, why do they send me a like to never ever respond? I hate dating apps. So yeah, I just wanted to ramble a bit, please yell at me if you mind

https://imgur.com/a/6cVTf4K

So, yes, I still like Karl, the guy I’ve been talking about, but I can be attracted to more than one person.

So, Nichole (17F) and I (18nb) have been talking a lot more recently. We’ve been friends since sophomore year (she was a freshman) but we haven’t really talked until recently.

I started to gain feelings for her after we did more stuff together, like calling.

Quite recently, we were discussing sex, and she said she would be down to have sex with me.

She also said that we could date if I wanted to, but if I didn’t see her that way, we could just be friends with benefits.

sooooo… i kinda just got out of a ”situationship” as they call it. however, i (18f) have kind of liked someone (19nb) on-and-off, a friend i’ve known who ISN’T long distance.

i liked them at first when i was around 17, them 18, but they were already dating so i decided to move on. we started chatting again and i still kinda liked them but didn’t notice, and they liked me too and just confessed recently.

omg i love him so much!! i have a bf nowwww :3

So, I (18nb) have posted about Karl (18m) before. I’ve had a huge crush on him for a while. Everything about him is so hot.

I’m into him in many different ways, which has never happened before (but obviously I want to try for romantic).

Buuut, after we go our separate ways due to going to different universities, we aren’t gonna see each other ever.

I will also probably be going to a different town, and I only had a few classes with him which I don’t anymore.

I’ve tried possibly going to his house and arranging dates to hang out but he’s really busy with athletics and I can’t text him because he doesn’t use his phone.

honestly, francine, stan and hayley too.

I already told you how it all started in my previous posts, but now it's different because I started having sex with him, before he only gave me blowjobs and now I started fucking his ass. I have to admit that it's a very nice thing to do, I've never fucked a butt before, I've always fucked pussies.

and I'm a little confused, because it started for money [not counting the jerk off we did in college watching porn] and I feel absolutely nothing for him other than friendship and brotherhood, he doesn't attract me at all but I enjoy fucking him, although it's not as satisfying as doing it with a woman.

and I realized that what I enjoy is having a man on a par dominated and in my power. that makes me horny and I don't know why.

for anyone who wants to give proper advice or know our ages, yes, we are still quite young. i’m 18f, he’s 19.

i recently broke up with sam, my long-distance bf of a few years because he ghosted me. last night, he finally answered his phone and got to talk to me, that he’d love to still be friends but he was ghosting due to poor mental health.

he explained that he knew it was wrong and he should’ve done something other than ghosting his gf, and despite having mental health problems, he still indeed had feelings for me and would like to give it another try when he can be a better bf and is more mentally stable.

on one hand, i kind of hope he doesn’t lose feelings for me, as i think my feelings for him are still kinda there, but i also would support him with romance and such no matter what, and even if he doesn’t have feelings for anyone.

i also hope he gets better and don’t want to pressure him into a relationship he’s obviously not ready for. i think he should take his time. i also need a break due to being hurt, recently breaking up, and having been ghosted.

but i’m no longer upset that it happened as i got to talk to him, and would be willing to give it another try.

i guess this no longer makes me a lesbian romantically but biromantic :)

Translation for the Spanish part:

Me: You’re the best girlfriend!!

Her: I’m notttt

You are

I don’t want to have this discussion 😠

It’s you

You’re the winner

Me: AAAAAAAAA

Very well then

This is why I love lesbian relationships

Her: Real/True

I made a Lemmy account

I love regardless of gender. Some people swoon over men, some over women. I'd swoon over anyone.

I was straight until my first girl crush in high school. For a while, I was bi with a heavy preference for men.

Now, don't get me wrong, I still like men, but as I got older, I like them less and had bad luck with them (primarily regarding sex or emotional unavailability or even cheating). While not all men are this way, it still changed my perception of them in dating.

I'm happy with my current GF as of now.

To add more lightheartedness to this community, I’m so excited for my friend Karl to not be sick so I can see him.

(I may not know if he likes me or not, and he may act a little strange, but I know he likes me as a friend and that’s great!)

Not my favourite Moonchild Sanelly track (Gwara Gwara), but it's fun and just I love the revelling in bi-ness here.

Edit: also riffing on her older and more fun (and sexual) track Boys and Girls.

I’m 18nb but amab, guy I like (Karl) is 18M and quite religious.

He seems to be fine with LGBT and makes a lot of gay jokes (he flirts with all his friends except me, save the one time he said I was cute) but also has a religious family + culture and internalized homophobia.

He calls the guys his boyfriend/hubby and the girls his girlfriend/wifey as a joke. He also calls them hot or smacks their butt/holds their hand (consensually) but seems shyer/less willing around me.

I know he’s not straight because he went out with a guy, so I at least have some sort of chance with him.

Anyway, regardless of whether or not he actually likes me, he was very reluctant to admit it to his now ex-boyfriend, and with religious parents and internalized homophobia, I’m not sure how to follow through if I do confess.

Marilyn Monroe and The Fonz, my childhood crushes

My friend who I kinda like is always making gay jokes, especially towards his other friends (he seems nervous to around me though??)

He claimed he was straight and had a GF but he would also “hint” to being into guys and flirt with his friends.

I had no idea whether or not he was one of the straight guys who jokes around or if he was actually into dudes.

I was too nervous to ask him such a personal question in person (I’m quite embarrassed to ask him anything 😅) so I asked him over text earlier and found out he’s pansexual.

I may have a shot with him, guys!!! (I’m nb)

So, this guy I’ve been friends with for a little bit and who I kind of like called me cute 👀 I was kind of flustered, to be honest, since I’m not used to being called cute.

I don’t want to overthink things but I’m so happy.

For anyone curious, I'm 18nb, he's 18m

I, personally, am on the verge of passing out.

i’m bi. so is my gf katya.

however, katya is also a HUGE right-wing Trump supporter. she literally follows him on every single account and says stuff like “no one cares abt lgbt rights” which is an odd thing to say as a bi person.

Katya is also very nice to me and very much in love with me, though, despite our differing opinions, and I know she’d be offended if I questioned them.

so i (13f) am friends with nadya (14f). i desire a connection with her and i’ve noticed i get jealous when nadya does things like touch her attachment’s arm (she develops attachments).

i want someone to connect with me like that. lately, i’ve been having dreams about her. nadya has insomnia, so in one, she called me on the phone and told me (after i told her to get a doctor’s appointment) that she slept a full 8 hours and thanked me for the advice.

nadya gives me eye contact, listens to me, and is very sweet to me in my dreams. i even went to her house, which i notice is a common dream i have with people i’m “in love” with.

i haven’t been to her house in two years because she’s so busy. i can’t believe i feel THIS way about the girl i used to be jealous of. (she used to be rude to ppl and i was jealous bc she dated my crush at the time.)

when nadya tells HER she loves her, it makes me kinda wish she was like that w me but idk if i just desire connection or what

Oh, did I say, "my girlfriend Kate", family? Yeah, Kate's my friend and she's a girl!

"Girlfriend of ten months"? We've been friends for ten months, guys!

You see how we hug a lot, hold hands, sometimes kiss? Kate is a very dear friend to me. We're closer than anyone else, and we show that by doing all that!

Oh, you saw me flirt with her? Friends do that jokingly! I wanna move in with her due to how expensive it'd be if we each got our own place! We'll be ROOMMATES.... who sometimes make out.

We just practice kissing! Ya think guys will date us if we're bad kissers?

How’s everyone doing today? :)