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The original was posted on /r/relationships by /u/wannaby_artist on 2023-08-18 14:21:09+00:00.
I have a really good friend I met many years ago and I can rarely meet due to distance. Some years ago, after spending some time togther only the two of us, I fell in love of her. It was the first time happening, and so far the unique, and I cannot describe how strong it was (I was never so much interested in a girl to actually do something to get engaged before). She said that she had always considered me a friend, if not her best friend, that she was sad if I misundestood some behaviour of her and moreover there is too much distance between us to actually think about that (the last parte it's true but it really seemed to me an excuse to avoid any objection). Anyway we managed to stay good friends, although every time I meet her I understand to have still strong feelings towards her and when I leave I'm really saddened. Now, since I guess it's quite difficult that she changed her feelings in the meanwhile nor the distance was reduced, I undestrand I need to move on but how? I fear I will never experience anymore such a feeling.
TLDR: I was rejected years ago by my best friend. She was the first and unique one I fell in love on and I want to move on but I fear I won't be able to experience the same feeling and so I fear to ask someone out (I have no previous relationships)