Thanks for telling me that. That's a lot to juggle, you need money to survive in life. Nearly everything costs money, even water is billed and it's sometimes horribly hard to make ends meet. Everything to make life less shit costs money. It grinds you away.
You're being sensible and you know your limits, you know programming is good money but you're too frazzled. Looking at alternatives is really sensible... you won't learn well, and therefore won't earn if you're too frazzled to absorb programming. It's not now or never you can put it on the back burner.
I'm glad you're reaching out about it, it's the right thing to do and you need and deserve our support right now. We've got your back
Yes it feels more like old school message boards where you were a proper community. It was a totally different feel back then