Yeah, and both this feeling and the wealth inequality are only gonna get bigger and bigger as time goes by, that's capitalism.
But there is still hope, a government and state of the working class, for the working class, where the capitalists are the ones oppressed, and not us. A society where profit is not the goal anymore, where the global south is not explored until they drop dead, where the poor and homeless can get what they need, where people can stop worrying about surviving and start living, where we are not a product anymore, but human beings.
This can only happen if people start organizing and start learning what do to and how.
Here are some resources:
In English:
Socialism for Absolute Beginners by Second Thought
Why Social Democracy Isn't Good Enough by Second Thought
Will Life Be Better Under Socialism? by Hakim
"Socialism always fails" is a stupid argument by Hakim
How Capitalism sells poverty as modesty & why equality isn't a practical goal. by Yugopinik
https://dessalines.github.io/essays/
In Portuguese (subbed in english):
Comunismo: princípios básicos e guia de leitura / Communism: basic principles and reading guide by História Pública
I don't know how autism affects your life but I can speak for myself and I know it can be tough, executive dysfuntion has been beating my ass hard for a few years at this point.
Still, I do not think I'm broken because of it, years of conditioning by a society that doesn't give a shit about us and want us to do as much or more than everyone else while also laughing at us really fucks me up, even while being aware of these expectations and lack of structural support.
Also, I wouldn't consider myself really me without the special interests and obsessions I had throughout my life and the ways I have talked and expressed it.
What I have just said most likely won't change anything in your life, but I just wanted to aknowledge how hard it can be while also showing a little bit of what makes me happy about my experience being autistic. I hope for the best for you, friend.