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The original was posted on /r/relationships by /u/Available-Gur3024 on 2023-08-18 20:12:25+00:00.
I (26f) think my boyfriend (26m) is tired of me honestly and i dont know if he is just with me because he is used to being with me and doesnt want to be alone. A couple of months we had a fall out, i hurt him bad and he wanted to break up with me, we broke up and a week later we couldnt stand being apart. I apologized, and started working on myself so he could trust me and feel comfortable around me again. He told me he would give me another chance and i took it. Everything was working just fine but i could notice he wasnt himself anymore. He slowly started to lose interest in me anytime we would face a problem, and it seems now that he doesnt feel much for me. I wish he would let me know if in doing something wrong instead of telling me he is tired of me whenever we discuss about something because of me wanting him to be more caring and loving towards me. He also doesnt seem to feel attracted to me anymore. I love him so much and he tells me he does too and wants to spend his life with me, (buy a house and such); but i feel like he is just saying that just so i dont feel alone or just so i can keep doing my life, because he knows about my mental issues and anxiety, im heavily insecure about myself because of trauma and i constantly think that he will leave, so whenever we are not okay, i find it really hard to function like a normal human being. Im a depressive person but i love him so much i dont know what i would do without him; but it depresses me more that i know he would be better off without me because my insecurities hurt him. I want to get better but i think he is just tired and doesnt have the patience anymore to be with me. Everytine we discuss, i think he is going to break up with me and abandon me. He is my best friend and i feel like i have noone else… i dont know how to fix myself, i keep trying but sometimes i fall. 😞
TL;DR i dont know if my boyfriend wants to be with me anymore, my depression and anxiety is tiring him and i sometimes hurt his feelings without noticing but he doesnt let me know until its too late. I love him very much i want him to be the father of my children but i dont think he believes i love him much honestly