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my bf is poly and already has a bf, so he doesn’t want to initiate anything with me. he doesn’t wanna call nor hang out, and he always texts very dry. he’s nice, but i don’t feel loved.

I’m not doing well mentally though. my gf already ignores me (she and i are poly too) and i feel like i will die if he breaks up (though i clearly won’t die)

there’s some days where she’ll want to talk to me, follow my accounts, say things to me, and then call me an annoying b*tch.

she’s nice in public, i’m assuming so others don’t think she’s mean, but what i mainly don’t understand is why she talks to me since she hates me so much and did nothing but harm me.

sooooo… i kinda just got out of a ”situationship” as they call it. however, i (18f) have kind of liked someone (19nb) on-and-off, a friend i’ve known who ISN’T long distance.

i liked them at first when i was around 17, them 18, but they were already dating so i decided to move on. we started chatting again and i still kinda liked them but didn’t notice, and they liked me too and just confessed recently.

omg i love him so much!! i have a bf nowwww :3

my ex-boyfriend sam (19m) of a few years has been my longest relationship (as i’m still young). he ghosted me and i started to lose feelings for him. however, i still had hope.

he also “forgot” about me when he would give gifts to other people, wouldn’t mention me under “people he appreciates” but would mention everyone else, and wouldn’t even tell people abt me.

due to all this, i started to question actually being a lesbian who was only into guys because of comphet.

however, last night, when he finally saw my messages (he doesn’t use social media a lot), he apologized and said he should’ve done something other than ghost his gf. he agreed that we should break up, and said he was being this way due to mental health problems, and that if we got back together, he’d be a better bf.

he explained he still had feelings for me and would love to still be friends.

that’s when i realized that i had genuine feelings for him that were still there, not just comphet. i always loved him and felt sad when it seemed he didn’t love me the same way.

i understand he’s not ready for a relationship rn, and i think he should take his time. i also am not quite ready due to this being so recent and the fact that we haven’t done actual couple stuff in a while.

but after a while, when he gets better, hopefully we’ll still have feelings and both be good partners (better than we were then). after all, even if the not including me thing isn’t an excuse, the ghosting was due to poor mental health which he can’t control.

so i guess i’d also be biromantic with a preference for women.

i hope we can make this work >w<

for anyone who wants to give proper advice or know our ages, yes, we are still quite young. i’m 18f, he’s 19.

i recently broke up with sam, my long-distance bf of a few years because he ghosted me. last night, he finally answered his phone and got to talk to me, that he’d love to still be friends but he was ghosting due to poor mental health.

he explained that he knew it was wrong and he should’ve done something other than ghosting his gf, and despite having mental health problems, he still indeed had feelings for me and would like to give it another try when he can be a better bf and is more mentally stable.

on one hand, i kind of hope he doesn’t lose feelings for me, as i think my feelings for him are still kinda there, but i also would support him with romance and such no matter what, and even if he doesn’t have feelings for anyone.

i also hope he gets better and don’t want to pressure him into a relationship he’s obviously not ready for. i think he should take his time. i also need a break due to being hurt, recently breaking up, and having been ghosted.

but i’m no longer upset that it happened as i got to talk to him, and would be willing to give it another try.

i guess this no longer makes me a lesbian romantically but biromantic :)

besides all that, she has an odd sense of humor but is really nice. not only this, but has been my friend since middle school, and i dated her in sixth grade. she has always been christian, but she’s practicing it more and feels like she has to “repent for her sins” and whatever.

she used to be a lesbian and then genderfluid but now she’s cishet and idk if she’ll understand what i’m going through, i also hope she didn’t decide this due to christianity.

and the gender identity and pronouns jokes feel weird to me as an enby and a lesbian 😓

will this end up actually bad for me like those superevangelicals?

cross-posted from: https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/22468079

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i love the idea of creating conlangs. i’ve experimented with the idea of them in years past but have never done anything with them, let alone created one.

i did create some toki pona-based ones as they consist of few words (~100) but i want to create ones that aren’t just based off toki pona.

someone i long since cut contact with due to abusive behavior said they don’t care about other people’s rights or respect for them?

they said they don’t care if trump ruins the us (despite being american), that they don’t care about the discrimination and social disadvantages faced by minorities (they are black, bisexual too[?])

and they always say “i don’t know and i don’t care” when someone asks them something. they also talk about how bad it is to hate “illegals” (which i agree with) but says she doesn’t care ahout illegal hatred too??

some straight guy i was friends with was obsessed with me. he only cared if i liked men and had a bf for some reason, and would ignore that i liked women. he would act like i was straight and that if i dated women, that just meant i was single and obviously interested in him.

a lot of the time, i’m either busy doing something where i literally cannot respond or overstimulated.

when i’m overstimulated, i physically cannot talk or barely register what someone’s saying. i also have trouble understanding out loud speech for some reason, where i’m listening but can’t process the words.

when my sister asks or says something, i often ask her to repeat it because it’s a lot of information. she says something like “never mind, you don’t care anyway, it’s not important” when i ask to be repeated.

she doesn’t care when i told her why i need it to be repeated.

she also thinks i’m mad at her all the time, gets frustrated when i don’t talk (because im incapable), and starts talking badly about herself when i don’t laugh at her humor (which consists of loud screeching and tiktok “brainrot” words)

since then, i decided to feign laughter so she’ll not think i’m upset with her.

i do try to be there for my sister, but there’s times where i cannot or just can’t talk.