exocrinous

Just had the worst farming experience of my life.

I've mostly given up on camping to farm. Whenever I do it, it takes 5 minutes to get one orokin cell. Whether we're doing Gabii, Ophelia, or Piscinas, I've found it's always faster to run towards the enemy than sit around waiting for them to come to you. I can kill twice as many enemies moving around than still, so what's the point of Strangledome in situations like that?

Today I formed a farming group with somebody who seemed new to Steel Path, looking for orokin cells. I asked if we could farm plastids at the same time. I recognise that there's a 10% lower drop rate of cells on Piscinas, but wasting 10% of my time is better than wasting 50% by having to go to Ophelia later on. The newbie also wanted plastids.

But player 3, who clearly knew exactly what they were doing, wanted to go to Gabii. They made fun of me for needing plastids and started us on Gabii. We didn't communicate at all before starting the mission, the newbie thought we were going to get Plastids at Gabii until it was too late to change the vote. Nobody even brought Khora.

I decided that since we didn't have Khora and half the people would rather be somewhere else, I'd just do what I thought was the most efficient farming strategy. I started exploring while mowing down infested. After a couple minutes, I'd found two orokin cells in resource deposits, I had 300 kills, and my camping allies had a total of about 60 kills. I recognise that my absence was throwing off the spawns for their plan, but they couldn't have got 300 in that time by camping, and certainly not 2 cells. Nobody even bothered to go pick up the second cell I pinged.

My allies started yelling at me for farming how I wanted to. I made my case that I've tried it their way dozens of times, and it doesn't work as well. They said that they've gotten 60 cells in an hour of camping. That sounds implausible to me, but if it happened, it was with Khora, Nova, Nekros, a resource booster, and luck.

Player 3 kept on calling me "guy" and "man", and it really pissed me off, being trans. So I said I'd go camp with them if they apologised for calling me a guy. They proceeded to keep calling me a guy on purpose, accuse me of trolling, and extract.

They still had not picked up the second orokin cell I pinged for them. But they did lie that thanks to a resource booster, they already had 5 orokin cells from 6 minutes of off-meta farming. I went to the camping site, found no cells, checked the scoreboard, and saw that getting 5 cells would have been a statistical miracle anyway. They asserted that the cells had despawned because I took too long.

I recognise that some people have good experiences with sitting in a room for an hour doing nothing and say it's more efficient. But if you're going to do that, at least have a plan. Don't leave Khora and Nova home, and then demand your teammates farm your way after the mission already started. Don't misgender fellow Tenno after they ask you to stop. Don't call people trolls for wanting to actually play the game. Don't lie to your teammates out of spite. And don't turn your nose up at orokin cells because your teammate got them in a way you didn't approve of.

I filed a report on player 3 for the harassment, and I felt so scared when I did, because there was a warning I could be punished for filing what they see as a false report, and I don't know how good their reports system is on intentional misgendering.

I made peace with someone! In the past, LinkOpensChest and I had quite the aggressive tussle over whether communists should vote for biden in the general election. Proof:

If you're interested in fighting, you can go find that conversation yourself and see the full context. But this post is about positive change, which is that us two are no longer fighting! Now I just have to do the same with everyone else who has a problem with me.

A lemmy.dbzer0.com admin by the handle of Unruffled, actual username @[email protected], posted an ableist comment today in relation to a ban decision.

Unruffled's explanation for the ban is that people with narcissistic personality disorder are not a victimised demographic, and that when pwNPD claim to be marginalised, this is an abuse tactic.

Wikipedia says on its page for NPD:

It is often comorbid with other mental disorders and associated with significant functional impairment and psychosocial disability.[1]

People with NPD are significantly functionally impaired, and psychosocially disabled. I could bring up a half dozen corroborating sources, but I'll skip that for now.

Now, the fact that people with the disability known as NPD suffer unfair hatred shouldn't be a controversial statement. A great example is the stereotype that pwNPD are abusive, and everything they do is a manipulation. This stereotype is massively damaging. In fact, if you have NPD and you look to Google for resources on dealing with your disability and improving your mental health, the first result you'll get is sources on how you're an evil abuser and resources for people who've been abused by you.

This is a significant barrier to treatment. In addition to the physical difficulty of finding resources by sifting through the hate, it can provoke feelings of shame and defensiveness, and drive people to avoid or distrust all online resources about their disability. And, like autism, a lot of the disability of NPD comes from other people's intolerance. The idea that we're all abusers primes people to see and choose aggression when dealing with us. It starts fights, it gets people hurt, it turns out lives into one big punching match.

The fact Unruffled engaged in this counterfactual stereotype while denying basic medical facts about a disability is troubling. It's my opinion that db0 should have a long conversation with Unruffled about sensitivity towards disabled people. Ideally, Unruffled would come away feeling ashamed of their behaviour and with a resolution to do better. But in the event Unruffled is unruffled by the conversation and unwilling to improve their behaviour, they should be banned from lemmy.dbzer0.com immediately for clear hate.

Lemmy is full of plenty of people who hate me for being trans and disabled. And way too many self-identified leftists who think I'm being trans and disabled the wrong way and am therefore a right wing troll.

Most of the well known Lemmy instances lean communist, even if their admins can be quite socially regressive. As such I've accumulated a reputation as being a troublemaker for the left. I want to go make trouble for the right to fix my reputation. I wanna go talk shit, stir up drama, and get banned. I want the modlogs to say a bunch of open bigots hate me instead of the closet bigots who hate me now. I wanna ruin some nazis' days and call them shitheads. Where do I go on the Fediverse to go make trouble for the open reactionaries?

I was just banned from [email protected] with the following modlog: Harassment. Do not come to random communities for your grudges, Use the rerport button when actual issues occur. I like ADHD memes, it wasn't a random community. But that aside, Lemmy is designed so that I can't follow this advice, because banned users cannot submit reports. So I am doing my best to follow the instructions as closely as possible, and submitting this post in lieu of a report. Stamets repeatedly called me a slur directed at people with NPD, which I have, off-community and defended it on dbzer0. MetaCubed also called me a slur after its status as a slur was pointed out. I ask for instance bans for both of them, because slurs directed at members of a marginalised group from outside are obviously in violation of the anarchist code of conduct. I would be submitting this as a literal report if I were able.