Depending on your age Mactonight are two completely different things. If your gen-x or millennial Mactonight is the weird fast food mascot you saw at McDonald's 20 years ago. If your a zoomer Mactonight is Moonman, the vaporwave, alt-right rapper who loves to say the n-word and kill minorities.

I remember my dad listening to Moonman songs.

Why he doing us Americans dirty like that?😭

"When have you discovered that you are different? What happened? Why did you take IQ tests?"

I was always slower then other kids my age. When I was 14 I was made to do an IQ test by the teachers in my school when I discovered my IQ at the time was 73.

"Can you share story about something that is different between you and average people?"

There's plenty. When I was 18 somebody asked me how to spell something and I just couldn't spell it and I broke down in tears. It was pretty embarrassing.

"Is your memory worse or just the thinking process?"

I think it's both. My memory isn't very good and my thinking process is very limited.

"Do you have any idea why your IQ is so low? Is it just coincidence or something happened while you were young?"

I think my mom drank while she was pregnant. Which explains why I'm different then my brothers and sisters. I don't know if that's true though maybe I just lost the genetic lottery.

"How can I recognize that someone has low IQ? How should I act when I meet someone with low IQ, should I use simpler sentences or simpler ideas?"

Not really, IQ isn't immediately obvious like other disabilities and if you meet someone with low IQ just speak and treat them like there anyone else.

No

Thank you and you do too

I see this is a dig at some politician you don't like. Pretty funny

"What do you do for work?"

I'm a burger flipper at Burger King.

"What level of education have you completed?"

I was a super senior at high school graduating at age 20 and I never went to university or college although I would like to.

"Were the results a surprise?"

Yes they were.

"And most importantly, has it affected your self-esteem at all"

I'm not capable of low self esteem. It's more like I feel shame and anger for it.

"or do you know how little an IQ test actually means?"

I hate people saying this. It's like if you were blind and everyone who could see told you that vision doesn't mean anything. I have seen first hand how IQ affects you. I remember how different I was to the other kids in my school. The way they could just learn things I couldn't. I've experienced how my IQ has singled me out from everyone else. Do you know what it's like to come to terms with the fact that no matter how hard you try you'll always be slower then everyone else? Do you know what it's like to come to terms with the fact that you'll never be a nurse, programmer or go to university/college no matter how hard you try? Do you know what it's like to come to terms with the fact that you'll never develop over the mental age of a teenager? No, you won't so fuck off with this corny bullshit about trying your hardest. Real life is not some cheesy sports movie where you really put your mind to something and overcome all the odds. That doesn't happen in the real world. Kid.

Don't really have one. I play video games, shitpost on the web and watch Futurama/movies a lot.

"How did you find out about Lemmy?"

I looked up Reddit alternatives and it came up. Reddit has a bad reputation and it's got too many rules. It's impossible to post anywhere cuz you never have enough karma.

"It seems it’s mostly a niche place for tech nerds and commies and you don’t seem to be either?"

Well, I was pretty interested in programming a few years ago because of game modding.

"Also what keeps you here?"

Same things that keep me anywhere. Interacting with others and the interesting communities.

"Wouldn’t the NPD push you towards more popular platforms?"

It has been proven that people with NPD use social media more. I'm no exception I have accounts on Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, twitter and SnapChat.

"Sorry for asking so many questions"

It's no problem that's what I'm here for.

"your experience sounds very unique and you actually seem very eloquent and thoughtful."

Isn't everyone's? And thank you I've worked on words and spelling for a while now.

Yeah, I use my card more because I suck at maths and I need to use my voice to text feature on my phone to write things down. My memory isn't that good and I get overwhelmed by information easily

"How does your lack of ability to connect manifest?"

Very superficial and short term relationships. It can be very isolating at times. I can connect to others but only if there really close to me.

"Do you feel connected to characters in books or movies/do their hardships affect you?"

They don't. There just made up.

"Are you doing any kind of exercises to change patterns around thinking/relating?"

Sometimes I think about others like there me. I know that sounds odd but helps me understand them. I try not to make everything about my self. I listen to others.

"How do you feel NPD hurts you?"

Yes, that's what I'm trying to get across in this thread. NPD is like a drug there's highs and lows. Sometimes when something good happens I just have this feeling that I deserve it. That I'm worthy but with that there's come downs. Sometimes things don't go to plan and makes me mad because how can I be wrong? It's hard to accept there's something wrong with you because you put yourself up on a pedestal and every mistake feels like your cracks are showing. You think that everyone else is as interested in you as you are.

"Last one, don’t answer if you don’t want, but what caused you to seek out professional help?"

I was having suicidal thoughts. I stopped seeing the psychologist cuz I lost interest.

No problem. I'm obsessed with how others look at me and I need constant validation and attention. I'm very driven by short term pleasure. I care more about the immediate validation and attention from others then long term relationships.

I found it hard to relate to others. Everyone else is like a secondary character or a NPC. I know this may sound bad but I found it hard to care about other people. I love my family and friends but it's hard to give anyone else attention.